The path in life - Where to?

Life is always full of obstacles and also full of highways i.e. spider web. We lead our own path. Well, in my case, with God's direction (if I remembered to surrender things to Him before making my own decision -.- .. bad me!) At times, we just dwell in where we are. Afraid of making changes, afraid of doing new things - afraid of the unseen. I am like that too. Perhaps, I am afraid to fail.

Well on another matter, I do feel my circle of friends getting smaller too. No longer part of the big gang in my dept, haha guess partly my fault for not spending time to follow up things with them and partly because those people no longer think i fit their group. No matter how or why, it seems like I no longer bother by this matter (I used to feel sad if I am left out haha). Guess when people grew up (meaning older), we tend to be quieter in a sense or wiser in a way. We don't gossips, we don't criticize for the sake of conversation any longer. What's the point if we can get to know everything on the earth. I would rather have a few "golden" friends that I trust and enjoy in their company :) Glad these friends are golden eggs to me hehe!

Record 22: Ruffy the dog is actually Tiger in name

The dog that we took care of few months back was actually named as Tiger initially. Got to know this from our neighbour (opposite) who has been taking good care of him before the accident. Tiger is more responsive as we called him this name :) After a few weeks of care since we brought him back, he is able to jump and run like a normal doggy. After being persuaded by our neighbour on the right, we decided to let him go... free. After praying to the Lord, He leaded us to Bukit Jambul to release Tiger. Indeed, it is a good place for him with a few more other dogs. Not just that the people there actually provided them food and drink. How do we know? One day, after releasing Tiger there, we went to visit him secretly. Even though Tiger waited at the same spot for us for a few days already, we saw a kind lady that went to pour clean water and rice for Tiger to eat. In my heart, I thanked God again and again for His blessing upon Tiger. At the first few days, Tiger rejoices when he sees us. It does hurt me and A-Roo for letting him go and it worries us to that time. However, after weeks, Tiger no longer sticks to us anymore for he has found his new gang of friends. I hope he is doing well and growing up healthily. :)

Record 21: It is hard to be the bad guy

At times, I am unsure whether what I did is wrong or not. It is definitely not my style but at certain times, we need to. It is not a major issue actually. It is in regards of my teammate that missed meetings again and again given the reason of unable to wake up and so. I have been reminding him couple of times, trying to let him know in a nice way that the meeting is something that is important that we ought to attend. It is actually the most important meeting that we have regularly with SJ .. our group meeting. Well, in a professional view point, it is about being accountable for the things we own, attending to every issue/question that people have upon our tasks. Today, I decided to voice out my concern to him that I am displeased with his action. Initially, I intended to cc our manager in the list for this issue has happened couple of times. But in the end, after pondering through, I deleted my manager's email from the list .. as what is the point of making people feel bad unless I have lost faith in helping him. Guess I still want to trust him to change and giving him chance to change. After sending the email to him, I submitted this matter to God, praying that God will touch his heart to understand the matter and will change for good. To me, this team mate is not a bad person. Probably his soft skills have yet to be sharpen and he is still unsure of what needed to be done. I just hope God's grace will continue to shine upon me to guide him and upon him, to understand the matter. It does made me feel bad of voicing the concern but guess it is better than none for people needs to change for better through advice. Oh Lord, may Your blessing be upon me to help those in needs. In Jesus's name I pray. Amen.

Record 20: Feeling sad and yet feeling grateful

Today, A-Roo received his focal. My heart feels for him. He is such a smart guy, talented and yet people here does not appreciate him much. There isn't much I can do but just to cling close to him. I know him too well, he will always look things in the brighter perspective and always smile. How great is my hubby-to-be. No matter what, I will stand by him. I will always be there to hold him even he asked me not to :P

We bought the dog, Ruffy back home. To our amaze, God answered our prayer and he managed to walk a bit and slowly even though his fourth leg is still broken. Praise the Lord. This is truly amazing as he was healed by himself without undergoing any surgery. Thank you, God for hearing us. Now is time for the dog to rest a bit and walk a bit and we will be bringing him for another vet visit for 2nd opinion.

I love you, A-Roo. I want you to be happy, at times, it is out of my control and i cannot do anything but to stay near to you. Cheer up! Lord knows you and I know you. We know you will make it successfully soon!

Record 19: Sometimes when we have to then we will do it no matter what

Soon, there will be a new member in the house. A small doggy called Ruffy :) I love A-Roo for who he is, for the heart he has. How I feel blessed to have him! Hehe.. a heart that is so gentle and filled with love, no harden in whatsoever way even when things might be tough. Really love you, A-Roo. ;) No matter what will happen.. let's pray for Ruffy. Hope he will heal well and able to walk again and live healthily.
Abba Father, I just want to continue to surrender Ruffy into Your hand. Father, I ask of your Mighty and healing hand be upon him as You heal him fully and recover him from his injuries. May Ruffy be spared from all the pains and uncomfortable feelings that he might have, Lord. Let miracle happen on this poor little dog O'Lord. Come Lord as we beg you Lord. And I pray all these in Jesus's name. Amen.

Record 18: Not enough time?

When I think of this question, it actually draws me into many situations that are happening now in my life. Not enough time for wedding preparation (all the arrangements, florist finalization, song selection, slide making...blah blah blah...), not enough time for work and Silicon is coming!! (applicable to me and A-Roo..esp A-Roo.. my heart actually feels sad for all the troubles he is facing now, not enough time for friends (to get together and have a good chat and follow-up), not enough time for many many more things... -_-
But of all the "not enough time" matters, I feel for what A-Roo is facing. As a good future Mrs A-Roo, I shall need to be 1) patient 2) caring 3) understanding 4) helpful 5) always submit things to God on his behalf. We worry but we tend to forget we have a stronghold there waiting to help us - Our Father.
Abba Father, I just want to stop at this moment to pray to You Lord, those that concern and worry us. I want to esp surrender A-Roo into Your mighty hand that You will bless him abundantly with wisdom, knowledge and all the skills required for his succession of work. May he, Lord, be also granted with good rest and sleep Lord that he will be refreshed every day to get focus in his work Lord. May You Lord, provide him with all the neccessary helps. Thank you Lord and I pray all this in Jesus's name.

A day of grateful

I want to remember yesterday because yesterday is the day where my hero is on rescue again. :) I truly love him for who he is and for what he wants me to. He wants me to be happy. It has been days where there are many quarreling (not with him), mis-communication, disappointment... with my mum. The heart-bearing pain is so hard to endure that tears of sadness just flowed down the cheeks. My A-Roo has been there to console me, comfort me, asking me whether am I fine almost every now and then, giving me a warm heart, giving me a smile to assure me things will be fine, giving me opinions on solving the matter, giving his cute innocent look hoping to give him a smile. I just love him and knowing how indeed he is so much important to me.
The day and only the day where someone actually stood up for me to clear the conflicts between me and my mum yet consoling her at the same time. I feel so touched that someone actually protected me, care so much about me and wanting to assure I am safe and happy. I love you dear! :) No one else could give what you have provided me.. your true love :D